Thursday, 31 December 2020
Into 2021 (101st)
Wednesday, 30 December 2020
100th Day - oh duck
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Monday, 28 December 2020
100 Days - nine and ninety What The Living Do
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Saturday, 26 December 2020
100 Days - Books of the year (ninety eight)
My christmas pressie to myself was a subscription to Gardener's World and I will enjoy learning lots of new things about plants.
It has been a weird reading year; looking back I find that I have only reviewed 25 books, a pitifully low number for me, though the figure has been on the wane over the last couple of years. I will try and get around to linking back to them all on the Book Review page. The year started with the best book for me, which was 'Ducks, Newburyport' by Lucy Ellman, a story that absorbed me right in for several weeks and left me wanting to start again, which is an unusual thing. Back on Day 1 in April I reviewed 'Homestead' by Rosina Lippi, a most beautiful tale of remote Austrian farm life, then Day 11 took us to the surreal world of the Northern Ireland during the troubles with 'Milkman' by Anna Burns. In October I fell into the world of Rami and Bassam and the Palestinian/Israeli conflict and a story to remind you that real human beings are the victims of political conflicts. I don't feel like I have written a proper review all year, I have a few things waiting in line for the new year and I will try and take more time for reflection on my reading (but that's not a resolution).
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Friday, 25 December 2020
100 Days - 97th surreal crimbo
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Thursday, 24 December 2020
100 Days - alas, it's day 96
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Wednesday, 23 December 2020
100 Days - ninety five (95): the end of the world
'Leave the World Behind' by Rumaan Alam is an unusual take on the end of the world. Amanda and Clay and their children Rose and Archie have rented a high-class holiday home for the week, but out of the blue the owners, George and Ruth, turn up on the doorstep, having driven away from New York in fear because of a black-out. Like when I read 'The Martian' a few years ago my main thought was that it would make a good film, maybe a rather arty atmospheric film. Nothing much happens but from the first knock on the door there is this weird tension between the grownups, which is impressive since you get the thoughts of each of them though from an external point of view. Stylistically this was unusual since the insides of people's heads are often reflected in their actions and words when a third person narrative is used. The narrative lurches from sitting in the hot tub to contemplating if there has been a nuclear strike, the whole thing is just so surreal. There are brief mentions of terrible things happening in the 'outside world' but they don't have any source of information. What I found most interesting was its examination of how dependant people are on their phones; all them are at a loss for what to do next without the reassurance of the phone. The person I felt most frustrated by was Clay, who drives off to the nearby town, and gets lost, despite having driven there for shopping the previous day. But then on the other hand I like that he was allowed to be weak, and how he admits to himself that he doesn't want to be strong and fix things for the others, he wants someone to take care of him. It is unusual for male characters to be able to admit this (though he lies to the others about getting lost).
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Tuesday, 22 December 2020
100 Days - 4 and 90 crimbo film time
Monday, 21 December 2020
100 Days - quiet today (93rd)
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Sunday, 20 December 2020
100 Day - ninety second (nearly done)
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Saturday, 19 December 2020
100 Days - ninety first: Yo Jimmy
Having said that the postman doesn't know where you live it is not unheard of for me to spend half an hour with random badly-addressed cards tracking down where they might be going. I will send letters and packets back out with suggestions for possible addresses on them. 'Yo Jimmy' was all that was written on a card the other day and I left it on the stairs at 9 Egerton.
Monkey had the final class of the term and then put Geraldine in the santa dress to get her in the mood for Christmas. Tish did her last shift of student covid testing, though she has more of the same after the holidays. I spent seven hours of my day off sorting cards and packets, then came home and we all cleaned bits of the house. This evening the tree has gone up, and Monkey read Mole and Troll doing silly voices. We still have the hexagonal cardboard creation that we made a few years ago and it still looks fab every year.
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Friday, 18 December 2020
100 Days - (90th) Workiversary
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Tuesday, 15 December 2020
100 Days - A Thousand Moons (day 89)
'A Thousand Moons' by Sebastian Barry is a continuation of the story in 'Days Without End' that I read two years ago. A Thousand Moons follows the story of Thomas McNulty and John Cole's adopted daughter Winona. The post Civil War world of Tennessee is a tumultuous place and their unusual mixed household gets some unwanted attention. Winona develops a relationship with a local man Jas, but given the opportunity he rapes her and she is left traumatised and confused. The Southerners are unhappy about the outcome of the war and the wider unsettled social and political situation rumbles in the background of their family's personal drama. Barry captures the atmosphere of the period beautifully; Winona recounts their life, interspersed with incidents and stories from her childhood. As a Lakota woman she has her own perspective on the situation and has worked hard to prove herself within a society that does not respect her. While she has the love and care of her extended household she tries to protect them from the problems she feels she has bought on them. She is intelligent and resourceful and tries to sort things out herself. In this scene she is trailing Colonel Purton's men as they go to confront some rebels, and she first meets the young woman who becomes an important presence in her life:
"The smoke of gunpowder rose from the melee. It might have been a clement morning mist along the peaceful river only for the great caterwauling of voices and the horrible screeching of wounded horses. I had seen just this before, but from inside a Sioux village. Inside the terror, at the heart of it. And everything I loved up to that moment about to be cancelled off the earth. As if bogus lives. Kill them all! And I sat there astride the mule like someone not there at all, but somewhere else, somewhere far away on the plains of Wyoming, but also, someone exactly there, living, gasping for breath, terrified. Then this strange girl comes blazing from the undergrowth, dressed vividly in a bright yellow dress that even in my great fright I noted it, bringing up her musket as if it was part of her own body, as if it had her own blood running through it in veritable veins, and fired it as my body. I felt the bullet tear into my right arm, I was only half leaning down to the Spencer rifle, I was just on the point of grasping it, when the bullet battered into my arm, battered into it, and I hauled up the Spencer, I knew the bullet was sitting in its little grave, and I fired blindly, something rose through me like a fire, my own blood was burning, it was the fiery pain of battle, and the pain pitched me down into blackness. No, no, now I was awake again, wide-eyed. That was a strange quick blackness. Did a minute pass? A moment? My enemy was now lying out across a riverside bush, also very strangely. I didn't know if I had killed her. Or even shot her. I couldn't see blood. She was a black-haired dark-skinned girl so beautiful the creek below wanted her. Her two legs remained on the bank, but the whole rest of her was depending on the kindness of that bush not to drop her down. Her head was furthest away, only four feet from the surging creek, which was full of spring rains. She was trying to bend back to safety with her two arms outstretched." (p.98-100)
Winona saves the girl and thus changes her life, in unexpected ways. The denouement was a little too neat but it only detracted in a superficial way from the strength of the story. Sebastian Barry creates such wonderful characters who you really bond with and allows you to feel that human beings are capable of such love and goodness in the face of the crap that life throws at them; I also loved 'A Long Long Way' that I read in 2012 (and wrote a much better review of).
Its late now and I have to sleep, and the piles of parcels are still mounting up at work; Huffington Post ran a story that confirms the chaos is widespread. I am going to risk posting a pressie to my sister, but christmas cards that I ordered three weeks ago have not arrived so those will probably be late, or non-existent this year. We have panic-bought a stock of sweeties and some advocaat so we are going to hunker down over the holiday weekend and eat ourselves silly.
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Monday, 14 December 2020
100 Days - 88 Rain
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Wednesday, 9 December 2020
100 Days - eighty BOOKS seven
'The Most Fun We Ever Had' by Claire Lombardo was picked up at random in the Waterstones BOGOHP thing (I've been working hard, I deserved to buy some books). It is one of those family saga stories, just people and their tangled lives and relationships, marked by somewhat excessive tragedy and drama, as if it would have been dull without sudden death and secret babies. I found the jumping back and forth in time a bit annoying and an unnecessary device. And then she annoyed me more by biological inaccuracy; nice little scene: "There -he exhaled- was Marilyn, in their bed with a daughter on either side. The Tiny Seed was open facedown in her thighs. They were all sleeping soundly. Violet's head resting on Marilyn's ribcage, Marilyn's hand frozen in midworrying of Wendy's hair. His breath caught at the quiet perfection of his family, honey-blond Wendy and dark, serious Violet, tiny bodies in tiny pyjamas, their thumbs in their mouths, their legs - little frog legs- twined together. And Marilyn: the girlish smattering of freckles across her nose, the slight leftward tilt of her head. He noticed, suddenly -a sharpening of vision like Waldo materialising from a sea of striped Vikings- the curve of his wife's belly. He stiffened. It strained against the pale blue knit of her sweater, a swell of maybe eight weeks or ten." (p.141) This is the imagining of a woman who does not have children. You get a 'swell' at eight weeks pregnant, it's the size of a kidney bean! But an enjoyable read leaving you warm and fuzzy.'My Dark Vanessa' by Kate Elizabeth Russell was the opposite of warm and fuzzy. It recounts a Lolita-ish tale of a relationship between a teacher and a teenage pupil, from the point of view of Vanessa. It shows you quite subtly how grooming operates, how she is made to feel special and important and is convinced that he loves her. The jumping back and forth in time was, in this book, an important device as you see Vanessa looking back on events and can observe the ongoing impact of the relationship on her. He persuades her to takes the blame for the rumours about their relationship and is removed from school. It is unpleasant and insidious, you can see her being manipulated but she does not. As new accusation emerge from the school after she has left she is forced to confront the uncomfortable truth about her abuse. I am not sure that even then she wanted to let go of the idea that he loved her. I did feel that it had some of the qualities of Lolita, the unreliability of the story as if she is more believing of the story she is telling herself than the reality of what is happening; the scene where he rapes her preoccupied me because it was so awful and her experience of it was traumatic, but afterwards she convinced herself it was what she wanted. A very thought provoking book.
In this scene, he is persuading her to come to his house for the first time, you can see the manipulation, that she kind of recognises but refuses to acknowledge: "He stares at me, the shine of his eyes moving back and forth. I gnaw harder at me cheek, thinking maybe he won't be mad at me if I hurt myself enough to ignite a fresh round of tears. 'Listen,' he says, 'I have no expectations. I'd be happy to sit on the couch with you and watch a movie. We don't even have to hold hands if you don't want to, ok? It's important that you never feel coerced. That's the only way I'll be able to live with myself.' 'I don't feel coerced.' 'You don't? Truly?' I shake my head. 'Good, That's good.' He reaches for my hands. 'You're in charge here, Vanessa. You decide what we do.' I wonder if he really believes that. He touched me first, and said he wanted to kiss me, told me he loved me. Every first step was taken by him. I don't feel forced, and I know I have the power to say no, but that isn't the same as being in charge. But maybe he has to believe that. Maybe there's a whole list of things he has to believe." (p.90-91)
Mum sent me Ian McEwan's 'Machines Like Me' and I thoroughly enjoyed it, though did not find it funny which was how she described it. In it Charlie invests his inheritance on a 'synthetic human', and thus a relationship develops between him, Adam (the synth) and Miranda, his upstairs neighbour. McEwan has created an alternative 1980s, with Thatcher and Tony Benn, but with weird advances in technology out of sync with other aspect of life. Artificial intelligence, and the idea of a computer thinking and learning like a human is separate from the technology that might create a robot that looks like and can pass as a person. Adam is more the latter than the former. He has all sorts of abilities and works hard to learn how to be a person, but others synthetics find human life unbearable and deliberately destroy themselves. In some ways the book is more about the relationship between Charlie and Miranda, and Adam is observing it from the sidelines, writing lovelorn Haiku to Miranda. Adam does not really have much 'personality' and you don't get attached to him as a character. I think this affected how much I thought of him as a person. Charlie and Miranda don't seem to think of him as a person and often treat him as a thing. Miranda has a hidden secret and as the events unfold Adam is forced to make a moral choice that will affect them all. There are a lot of interesting ideas in the story but I think all the historical stuff was not relevant, it felt just a bit of a gimmick. I really enjoyed 'Black Dogs' in 2017, 'Nutshell' in 2018 and 'Cockroach' last December.Stay safe. See you tomorrow.
Tuesday, 8 December 2020
100 Days - Fukuoka day 86
This is the reclining Buddha in Fukuoka, Japan, apparently the largest in the world. Coincidentally Monkey will be going to Fukuoka in ten months time. Although she has not yet done the application Manchester uni has allocated her the available place at Fukuoka Women's University (she would only be turned down if by some catastrophe she failed her second year). We are jump-up-and-down excited as it was her preferred university. It is however the other side of the world and I am having mild anxiety about her being so far away. It has been a very long road from her initial interest in learning Japanese and wanting to visit Japan to the, now, very real fact that she will be spending an entire year there. It feels amazing that she had a plan and, though some parts of it have been very difficult, she has pursued it and is reaping the reward of all her hard work. I anticipate lots of posts about Japan.
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Friday, 4 December 2020
100 Days - (eighty five) send in the cavalry
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Thursday, 3 December 2020
100 Days - hands face space day 84
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Wednesday, 2 December 2020
100 Days - 83 scream
Tuesday, 1 December 2020
100 Days - the eighty second day : belated chocolate advent calendar week
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